with words I never said..

All it takes to ruin what was once strong and happy are words

Words that were never said

Words that shoot right through you

Sharp ones that pang when blurted

even those ones that were kept in for so long

so long..that when it erupted, it hit you like a bullet

Sometimes, we think we know 

truth is, most of the time we have no idea at all

We trust, we love, we accept

but even that doesn't suffice

for in the long run, when problems escalate

we all break apart and fall to pieces

We only hope for the best

but only when we move on

will we find peace

only when we learn to pick ourselves up

will we find rest

Grey's Anatomy

CHANGE.

we don't like it.we fear it.and we can't stop it from coming.

we either adapt to change or we get left behind.

it hurts to GROW.

and anybody who tells you it doesn't is lying.

sometimes, the more things change the more we stay the SAME.

sometimes, change is EVERYTHING

Forgive and forget, that's what they always say.
It is a good advice but not practical.
When someone hurts us, we want to hut them back.
When someone wrongs us, we want to get it right.
We just need to hope for the best and hope that someday, we will be lucky enough to forget.

-Meredith Grey-

Lies.

"people lie everyday to save their face from humiliation or to get something they could not get by any other way". (Geary, 2000)

"it would be an impossible world if no one lied". (Geary, 2000)

"we don't THINK before we FEEL". - Paul Ekman

How do we really tell lies apart from truths?

beautiful disaster

i am who i am.

no one has any right to tell me off
i live my life the way i want it to be
on the rough edges
no limits, no boundaries

you can either make me
or break me
it doesn't matter as long as it is your
happiness and contentment

love me or hate me
i don't care
for as long as i am confident
i am free.

i am...
the girl who likes the oblivious.
stunned by different shades of beauty.
living in liquid dreams , i am drowned by reality.
misunderstood and barefaced.
loved and unloved.

my silent escape

I have been thrashed down so many times..by experiences, people, and my surroundings. 

Sometimes, I want to give up and just cry.

But most of the time, I just flip a finger I just keep my head up and keep walking.

NOW,
I take another step in my ladder to "my utopia". To some people, it may never exist; but to me, it can. I know i can make it. A perfect world does not have to be just colors, clean air, everlasting happiness, and unbroken hearts. I prefer mistakes and imperfection to be the ingredients in my utopia. I never would have learned to smile until I cried. I never would have recognized ease after pain. I never would have known satisfaction until I experienced hardships. I never would have understood love before my heart got broken many times. I never would have learned the truth...if not for the world's false actions.

c-h-a-n-g-e

(old post)

People always say that change is good. But I guess what theyre only trying to say is that what you dont expect to happen, has happened.

-from the movie youve got mail-

Aside form being something romantic, this movie is also a reflection of life. This line struck me the moment I heard it. It's true. It has become cliche...that change is good. Everyone says that. Even I said it to a lot of people. For all I know, it has another, deeper meaning and yes, thus is written above. Everything, and even ourselves, have to change because of sudden circumstances in our lives. Maybe a sudden turn of events, or a sudden change of decision or choice. There are things that we really don't expect to happen, but always...always happen. Sometimes we change for the better, sometimes for the worse, sometimes just because we want to, sometimes because we are forced to. I have come to realize that change...is like saying to yourself that "I have accepted what has happened and even if I don't like it, I will move on with my life and start anew." I see it as a beautiful thing, for I have experienced (and am still experiencing) a lot of changes in my life.   See, we only have to accept things and we should not be bothered about change. Maybe sometimes, it is unhealthy, but majority (of what i experienced and witnessed) produce a lot of benefits in the end. I say keep your heads up and have no fear of stumbling over bumps, because life will not be fun and exciting without bruises. You can't say that you have experienced life if you have not yet seen its surprises and if you still can't tell that you are actually in it.

she & him

She quietly said hello
while he was drowning in his sorrow
she couldn't fathom
why he was holding back from "tomorrow"
of friendship, love, and trust
he was stuck in the ghost of the past
seemingly struggling to battle the chains
that will lead him to the exit door where
the "old" is not allowed to remain
like what feet are to us,
she helped him stand up
gaining strength and courage
to face what was yet to come
the skies were bluer, the days were better
oh how gleeful everything appeared to be
until that day where the clouds rolled over
and "trust" ended up like shards of glass on the floor
laying lifeless, motionless, and hopeless
she was entangled in a web of confusion
lies after lies she braved
darker were the nights of yesterday
tears became her fort and defense
anything he did didn't make any sense
as she slowly wormed her way out
she hoped there would be no fallouts
of friendship, love, and trust
nothing will stay unjust
then these silent and cold reveries
no matter how deep the cuts are
will forever hold those memories